Life is tough. I'm scared

I have been at my workplace for two weeks now. It's very tough, demanding and high pressure. I have canceled my plan twice already - even at the weekend.

I expect that my work will be busy, but nothing prepares me for the demanding nature of the work. I always think of myself as a strong person who will never give up easily. But I have shed tear many times lately. It's just a mixed feeling. I was feeling the pressure and the blame and at the same time I was afraid of losing you. I haven't cried for so long, and it's kind of hard to bear. It's hard when you arrive at the final month of the project.

I'll stay patient and strong. I'll do my best and hope for the best. I will come back here and update how it goes.